I guess I gotta make this short, I can’t type well on an iPhone, and the app has no landscape mode :(
Anyways! Down to the reason why I’m writing this, spring break starts the week after next and I can’t wait..it will bring much needed rest from the stresses of school and I get to spend more time with my family who haven’t seen much of me this year..I feel bad because when I’m in town I’m never home to see them..perhaps I should stop going out every week night..lol, maybe not.
I spend most of my weekends with my girlfriend who I don’t see throughout the week because we both go to school in different cities..but that may change next semester…
I just got out if math class..I have a test this Friday, should be a piece of cake..right now i’m in the library listening to music and waiting for the right time to head towards my next class..history, which is probably one of my more exciting classes.
Not much to say right now other than life isn’t so shitty, so I can’t complain.
Oh yes! I need to go to the store later and pick up a few things I been wanting to buy for a while now..maybe after that I will wash the dishes that been sitting in the sink for…well..TOO long now.
What start to the year..yes its March, but fuck it, I need to vent even if its a bit too late into the year.
I broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years, honestly it should of happened a hell of a lot sooner, but I knew I would be looked at as the ass hole prick who dumped “the nice girl”. I gave too much thought about what others thought about me, now that I have had time to reflect on my life, it is time to start living life the way I want to live it and say “fuck you” to anyone who tries to steer me away from my intentions.
I feel as if I dissapointed my family with the break up, I really do..I feel as if I let them down. I try not to think about it much, which is easy, but if I were to say that if I didnt care if my ex was hurt, I would be a god damn liar. I feel for her even though I havent talked to her in about 2 whole months. I hope she is doing well, even though I have feelings she is still having a tough time, I hope she quickly finds the guy who was meant for her, I truly do, she is a genuwine person, one of a kind and a really amazing person, I dont regret knowing her the way I did, but we were not made for each other and I hope she understands that soon. She deserves better than me and at the same time I deserve to be happy as well.
TIME FOR SOME NON DEPRESSING UPLIFTING NEWS!
After the breakup I have met someone truly amazing in many ways, we can talk for hours everyday and talk about things we never talked about before, we can sit in a COLD ass truck at 4 am and just talk with out being bothered by our freezing feet and hands. I can honestly say I have never met anyone like her before..and with every passing day I feel like im growing closer to her with every passing second. She already knows many things about me that only I knew about myself, things that if my family and friends knew, it would totally change the way they looked at me from here on out. I cant predict the future, but I can totally see myself with her for a good while, she makes me feel good and drives me to be a better person. I have met her family and I can honestly say that I am totally in love with them! They are down to earth and I have the feeling they like me as much as I like them, which to me is great!
I started school at Sam Houston State University in January and so far so good, im doing well in all my classes with the exception of Botony, the study of plants is handing me my ass on a silver platter right now, but hey! what can I say, im not a plant person, I dont garden and I honestly dont give a shit about plants, I know if my Botony professor saw me type that he would totally give me an earful about how “if plants could, they would kill you without a question”. Hes actually a cool dude, hes funny, super intelligent and makes a hell of a lot of sense. Theres so much about plants that I did not know before and now that I know it blows my fucking mind! Humans and plants are similair in many ways, like we both practice parental care and fight for resources everday.
I am excited right now, because I have plans to travel to Los Angeles this April to see Opeth at their 20th anniversary show, its going to be the most epic show this year, if not the entire newlyborn decade, and I can say this with all seriousness.
I really dont know how much I will blog, or if anyone will even read my bullshit stories, but hey its a great way for someone to vent and possibly make some friends while doing so.
Til next time kids!
